I wish you knew…
Every time you send me a selfie, I see more than your smile and eyes.
I see the laughter flowing from your lips the night we smoked so much that I couldnt breath. I see the lines in the corner of your eyes, and they remind me of the way you smiled at dinner. I want to appreciate them, and smooth them with my thumb at the same time.
Every time you hug me, I don’t just feel your arms.
I feel a place I didn’t know existed. I feel a safety that I wasn’t sure was real. I feel a calmness in all the anxiety I feel when I stand too close to you. I feel the buzz go calm, and the rush od blood silence.
Every time we have a conversation, I don’t just heat your sentences.
I hear your voice and fins its calm. I hear your thoughts and get wraped up in how wonderful they are. I hear your excitement when you speak about things you love. I hear the honestly and innocents in your dreams. I hear your intelligence and think of how beautiful your mind is.
I wish you could see all these things.
I wish I could sit on the couch with you, in my pajamas, and just do anything to make You laugh, and feel loved. I would hold your hand as tightly as you hold my attention, and smile each time you made my heart beat a little faster.
I just wish you knew.